ITW question
Did Chris unconsciously want to die or was it a suicide mission? Why didn’t he accept help from people earlier if he didn’t want to die? Why didn’t he leave before things got too much for him to handle?

I find that the desire for change in life is a natural one that keeps people moving and is used as a natural learning mechanism.  The root cause of this is most certainly humanity's raging curiosity.  We will go out, see something, imagine up possibilities that may happen based on what we already know, and go test it.  Although a simple learning mechanism more heavily used by infants may seem like a dumb thing to get stuck with as an adult, we are, we simply have more critical thinking skills and we have learned more things so as your life continues you will continuously try to fill that urge with more things. Simply trying a new restaurant or even wanting to do anything small and out of the ordinary satiates this hunger for new experience or knowledge.  All that is important is that you gained or even regained something in your mind that you find worth noting. This is one of the reasons I cycle through video games so quickly and keep finding new games to play although maybe not as quickly as some.  When it comes to desiring such a drastic change as Chris desires, that requires a build of curiosity and wonder over time that has not been satiated and suddenly releases in an outrageous act of defiance and change.  So no I do not believe that Chris was on a suicide mission, but did end one life and start another.